Even though i know it'll hurt. im trying very hard. putting up a smile when i actually wanna frown. laughing when what i really want to do is cry my ass off. making jokes when what i really want to say is you don't fucking understand me.

my life's been in a whirlpool ever since it happened. I can blame no-one but myself for it. Im insensitive, stupid, a fucktard. I really hate my life right now.

i know nobody will sympathize with my situation and condition even if i tell. so fuck it. fuck all. everyone's a fucking bastard. FUCK OFF